January, 3rd 2008

This is my 1st blog for the New Year !! Happy New Year to myself, Hing & all my loved ones....Well, I was admitted to Westchester Medical Center fr 23rd till yesterday, spending the end of the year in hosp w much feeling of sadness, anger & depression!! While everybody is celebrating & cheering, there I was, feeling so lonely, bored & angry.....
Started w fever & recurrent of ?? celulitis in my R leg (ankle was red, swallen & painful w few tiny sores) Went to the ER & of course, w a hx of chronic illness, they would not let me leave until and unless a full exam had been carried out...I spent the night in ER & finally went to the unit only at 6am on 12/24/07!!!
The same series of blood tests, X-rays & special scan was being done slowly. Coinside w the holidays, where there is not so many Drs or not so many Deprs were being operated, I spent most of the 10 days, waiting, waiting & waiting.... (Then the blood test showed taht I hv MRSA in my blood, just like the last 2 times!!) I started on ab treatment. Time was so bored, slow & awful during those agony moments....Deep inside I wish that I can scream, yell & blame 'somebody' to release my frustration. But, all I could do was to wait, be patient & reassured myself of God's promises...Still hold on to God's love & the rainbow that He has created in my life amidst all the trial & tribulation journey that I hv gone thru...That was how I got thru' the 10 long days w-out going 'crazy'. Thank You God for being there for me the entire time, comforted and sustained me. I continue to thank Him for all the good as well as the bad times, for he si with me, no matter what, where & how....Prise Him.
I thank God for Hing's great care & sending friends, neighbour, Pastor, church members to visit, pray & cheer me up, their present really meant a great deal to me & I sincerely appreciated their kind thoughts, prayers & encouragement...
I was so Happy to finally returned home at 6pm yesterday!! So was Hing, he called in sick just to stay home w me....I hv to continue w IV ab treatment via a Picc line in my L upper arm, at home for 4 week so as to make sure all the MRSA bacteria in my blood r being 'killed' once & for all, never recurrent again!!Hing will be admin the ab for me once a day & blood test in between by the visiting nurse.
I read the blogs of my loved ones & was so happy that all of them hv had a wonderful time being together.... I called eldest sister & shared w her, she was shocked & saddened by the news & comforted me thru' the phone...Told me that Rena was not feeling well, H/A again)Called Rena, her maid saied that she had just returned fr the Dr's office for severe headache & was sleeping.... Will talked to her later. Hope she will recover soon. May God bless her, gives her strength & heal her...
Tomorrow, we will be going for a planned mini vacation/getaway to AC.... I am really excited & being at home I am 100% better already, slept very well, peaceful & sweetly last night, am now feeling 'normal', strong, energetic , active & percky again.(Doing things always make me feel good & happy!!) Hosp really make one depressed & become 'more' sick!!! I will hv no part to do w it again. God be w me & heal me, Amen.